on the opposite coast of sadness..is something called the smile..but before we can go there, is there something we're waiting for??


I have been waiting for a person who can make me smile with all my heart..Everyday in my life, i used to be humorous or whatsoever but actually, i was never happy..i don't even know how i can be happy if i am having problems everyday..every time i cry, i cry with my shadow..i cry because of my family, friends who are backstabbers..but i can't even trust one person in my life now..i've expected too much from friendships and there they go,,the backstabber..
my life..

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this is life..you always have to go through sacrifices to test your strength and to be able to go on with life..life for me is the hardest question never answered..we always seek for answers to our questions..life ngah mt tlgah..4th year ak et..but nothing's changed about my family..i'm very tired of the word "fighting" but that's life, it maybe just an ingredient of life but it sucks..


with friends, hai ewan, i lost my bestfriend..but now, i think its better, when you lose someone, one really just comes into your life with everything you've been looking for..i'm happy about my friends today..

my life..

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friendship has always been my inspiration for me to move on in this problematic world..but now, i came to a conclusion friends sometimes really can't stay..i always try to remember my friendship with my "dear"..those memories are really memorable..now, what can i do, i'm out of her world now..though, she's still the best, i can't say i can forget her in an easy way..friend friend friend..i just wanted to go back to the past but i can't..hhmmmm..i miss her though..

my life..

It isnt a crime to want
A little space to breathe
But you will be fine
The sun again will shine on you
Whatever you do
[Chorus]
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here when you change your mind
Take your sweet, sweet time
I will be here for you baby
Anytime

Im feeling you pull away
'cause letting go isnt easy for me
But you'll never fly
With someone elses wings, I know
Wherever you go

[Repeat Chorus]

I will never stand in your way
Wherever your heart may lead you
I will love you the same
And I will be your comfort every day
Do you hear the words I say?

[Repeat Chorus]
yeabah..hehe..my favorite song..just reminds me of a memorable person..
my life..

oh damn..did you ever felt you almost lost your place??just did..now, i just expect it would all be gone so i'm trying to live with it..to live a life knowing it's all gone, and knowing there would be next in line..life, really has so many problems..but whatever it takes, you just learn how to go with the flow..and this is my life now, feeling alone..
my life..

stars..

" i'm here "..",-..take a look around..stars...........stars may fade..well, not me.. :p..
"behind my laughter are my kept tears, behind my jokes are my hidden problems, i may not be happy always..just remember..when I'm with you my smile is real.."knuuh..well, true..hehe..imaginary mn nu ngag pinagilam, a true friend never leaves you..
my life..

ahhm..

long time no post..haay..merry christmas!!!!well, vacation manen..enjoy sana tayong lahat..
we just had our speech and well, maybe all of us got nervous..the contents of our speech is good..
my life..