life..

This is life. People are born with responsibilities and purposes and problems are parts of lives. It's always hard for me to enjoy life. Though, I still smile but smiling and laughing doesn't always mean happiness for me. With problems, I am not enjoying my kind of life. They say, problems are always with solutions. Actually, I sometimes think that my life is not worth it. I'm starting with my journey. Maybe life would still give me some. I always say I would never give up but sometimes feeling sadness and loneliness makes me do so. A doctor said to me, I need love and care. But thinking of it, if they can't give it, who needs it anyway. I've been longing for happiness and company.I can't feel friendship now and also family love and caring, I've been expecting too much. I don't even know what to do. Words not said and shared are still hurting me.